Live a little – just in moderation

I don’t smoke. I don’t do drugs. I rarely drink alcohol (we’re talking like 1 – 2 drinks every 3 – 4 months on average; I never acquired the taste of beer). I don’t vape. Most of life’s little bad vices I tend to avoid, mostly because it’s just not for me. Not that I’m […]

Humanity in Star Trek is probably impossible but we should still try

I believe that Star Trek is supposed to be an ideal of what humans should strive to be. Strive to put aside our greed and corruption and such, and work towards the common good. Towards exploration and helping. However I believe that it’s not technically possible to reach this ideal fully, human nature has shown […]

I’m afraid God has abandoned us – because I would have

I keep having this underlying fear that we’re on our own, that God has abandoned us. Or at the very least he’s taken a very very relaxed hands-off approach and maybe nudges things here or there every so often but otherwise he lets us “do our own thing”. The Bible says he hasn’t abandoned us, […]

Bout of depression

I think the problem with my latest bout of depression is that there isn’t a very good reason for it. No big event or issue, no “smoking gun” so to speak as the cause. So when people close to me find out I’m depressed, I love them and appreciate them and such, but they always […]

My daughters are crazy

My daughter’s are crazy but I love them so much. Love you Cayla and Catelyn. My daughter’s are lovely, dark and deep (emotionally); But I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep, and miles to go before I sleep… Eh, forget sleep, I meant before I can sit and watch TV […]

Writers / Directors / Actors (Strike)

I’m kind of on the fence about the actors striking thing. Some of their demands makes good sense, and I’m all for them getting good pay for good work. But I do feel some actors/actresses are overpaid, because they’re in a position to screw over the studio if they decided to quit; because their “character” […]

Random thought about Abraham and Isaac

What if the order to Abraham to sacrifice Isaac was a different kind of test, one that Abraham and Isaac may not have actually passed?

From I don’t know to I don’t care

I don’t know what I’m doing and now I don’t care

Why can’t non-insured get the same discount

Still drives me nuts when I get a medical bill and you see what the original charge was then you see the “Insurance negotiated discount” or adjustments or whatever they call it. That negotiated discount is usually like 90%. But complaining about the american healthcare system is about just as effective as screaming into the […]

I’m having a hard time holding on…

Not going to post this to FB, too many friends and family see it there. But I’m struggling to hold myself together. Some days are great, I think I’m recovered and life is good, other days I’m just in such a deep dark funk and I don’t know if I’ll ever get out. 2021 was […]